Mission statement

Here I am yet again...contemplating my life. Where am I? What am I doing? How do I feel? What do we get out of life? Precisely! We get what we want out of life. Do I want to chase someone who won't even give me the time of day? No! The answer to that question, folks is no,no, and no! Do I need to rely on others to dictate how I feel? No! So knowing that this is my mission statement...I need to talk about what will work for me. If I only worry about what others think of me, or if my actions are a direct result of what others are doing, then who am I? That's where the mission statement comes in. My mission: To be happy with myself, To love myself, and NOT to worry about what others think of me. How can I be happy with myself? I know a way I can start, by losing weight and dressing better. (I know that dressing better appears to be a very wide description of what should be done) Let me narrow it down...NO T-SHIRTS (for any reason other than sleeping) To love myself...be happy with me! That's all I can ask for. Be happy with myself regardless of whatever is weighing me down making me possibly not like me. Be strong and not to let little things get to me.

Do you ever wonder if you will just go through life just going with the flow? That's how I feel, I just go with the flow...wherever the wind takes me. I'm tired of it, yet I don't know what my motivation is. I don't know what I want out of life (I mean really want out of life). Yes I want to be financially successful but that isn't everything. I want to be happy, I want to be with someone who makes me happy, someone who is happy making me happy. I want to be with someone who can make me laugh, I want to be with someone who I can sit with in silence and still be somehow connected. Is this a dream or a possibility? I honestly do not know, I am newly single and still struggling with my last relationship yet I just want to move on. Move on to a better person. Who or what this person is, I am not sure all I know is I want his company, his presence.

Currently, I am obsessed with a person...whatever I try to do to forget him or not think about him I cannot. Yet as I look upon this situation I see a similarity between my obsession and that of a co-worker that I had years ago...and in the end it was she that got hurt, he eventually got married and moved on with his life. I don't want to be that person who holds on to something (that really is nothing) and end up lonely. Why do I deserve to be lonely? I know that I don't, I know that I have a lot to offer and that I'm a good person. With that said...Do you believe? Do you believe that I can find someone? Someone that is suitable to be with me? Someone who I can laugh with...I only ask because I am almost to the point of not believing that I won't meet that person, that I will be all alone...Help me to believe!